I was looking over at Spyk and Ryan, and what I saw was not my family... and I was happy for her. She was holding Alanna, and Ryan was behind her, and they looked so content. She looked so happy. It looked like a completely different family, and while the thought in and of itself was more than mildly disconcerting, I was happy for her. Quite glad that she seemed happier with him than with me. Does this signify something in the future? I don't know...


ORG. Post Self/ Apr. 18, 2009

Current Mood: distressed

I lost my fucking phone again. this time I don't think I'm going to get it back though...... haven't found it yet, its getting closer and closer to 24 hrs since its been gone.... shitt.... i need your numbers lacy....send them to me asap please.

I LOST MY PHONE!!! I'm not sure where it is right now, but I think it is somewhere in the black abyss of my work. >.< For lacy, if you could call david, let him know, and pass it on, and call talia, that would be great. I don't know when I'm going to get it back. I love you very much. HOpe to be able to talk soon.

Jaden "Kylee" Phairchyld

...i don't know what to do...
...i can't keep doing this...
...i want to slice my wrists open...
...i can't take care of anyone...
...not even myself...
...they would be better off leaving...
...i would miss them so...
...my head hurts so bad...
...i can't sleep...
...i have to force myself to eat...
...this hurts so bad...
...somebody...
...please...
...kill...
...me...
...inside...
...i...
...don't...
...want...
...to...
...feel...
...anymore...

Current Location: work
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: none

I'm not a bot I'm not a bot I'm not a bot!!!! Anyway, with all the numbers,t hat's probably whats figured, but yep,nope, not me. Well, this is my first journal on here. So it will be short and sweet. the end. ^^

Current Location: near the computer
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Assemblage 23 - Maps of Reality